Memories of our son Frank Ruiz Jr

Another Holiday without you.
My heart hurts.
I remember the great times we had with you during your life.
You were always the one to start and keep the BEST conversations (and sometimes "debates") going. I can see you in my minds eye, you laughing looking down with a hooligan smile on your face, laughing at the outrageous talk....most of which you exacerbated....I loved to watch you with people. You were always surrounded by people, and the talk and laughter was a constant.
Sure, you were temperamental and grumpy sometimes...(ahem)...but that was all part of your "charm"! Well, except for the Jets games when they were losing.....oh boy. You were bad, boy.
But, I would give my life for even one more LOSING Jets game.
I love you so much, and miss you to the point of physical pain.
I always ring the singing bow, and remember you as a beautiful, beautiful, soul.
Your energy always appears to me as a beautiful, shimmering Gold.
And when I visualize, and strike the singing bowl three times (past, present, future)...I see my energy rising into the universe as a beautiful Caribbean blue sky.
The colors filling in the gap like a sweet embrace.
It warms my heart, and I can feel like you are giving me one of your legendary bear hugs.
I will remember you as you were.
I will always remember you as you were, and hope that you really are all shimmering gold energy. And that all your memories and love are still part of that energy.
And, I will live with faith that you will be waiting out there in the cosmos for me and your Dad to join you.
I will always love you.
Mom