This was sent to your sweet girl, Ilana,  on Valentines Day 2016. Its hard to kill these plants, and you know how hard she is on plants! LOL! Last year I sent her a HUGE cactii arrangement. Its STILL alive! You would be proud of her! lol!
So, I will keep doing this until...well, you know....
I miss you Frankie. I miss our laughter and love.
All the joking, and all the aggravation.
I would do anything to have it all back....
I love you, son.
Happy Valentines Day in the Cosmos...

I miss you, my pride and joy...
I think about you about a billion times a day.
I ring the singing bow three meaningful times before I leave the house every morning.
Its funny, but I have to shut the door before the last vibration stops....
I guess I want to capture it there for the day, and imagine it humming around with good energy all over the house. Maybe you will hear it, and smile.
God, this is hard, Frankie.
I am so sorry.
I wish it could have been me, instead of you. I swear that on my soul.
You were a light in the world that should NOT have been snuffed out.
I hope you can see Jackie, and how awesome he is, and is becoming. Oh, Frankie....he has so many of your wonderful quirky ways!!! How does he do that? Well, I HAVE a theory! (lol)...Its you. I know that in my heart of hearts. You must be so proud, of him...and Ilana. She is a strong girl....
Let me stop, or I will start sobbing again.
I love you forever and always, my little brown boy.....
I hope you are flying with umbrellas on skateboards up there in the cosmos, comrade!
Be FREE! Be FREE!

Its Louie Louiee! She misses you, and your crazy antics....

Oh, Frankie.
I miss you so.....

My God, I cant stand it. I miss you more everyday...

My hands,
like magnets.

Find the walls
of his room.

I try to sleep.

Brain matter
slips from my ears
to the pillow.

It is
the slow exile
of my soul.

I am slipping
into madness.


I miss you.

Your son was the most amazing gift. In the middle of this horrific tragedy, there are moments when joy finds me. And it is usually your boy who makes my heart sing. When he leaves with his mamita, I stand in the middle of the street with my "I love You" sign raised high. I do not move until they are out of sight, over the hill on the road that leads away. 

 I would do anything to have you back, my beloved son. Anything, just so you would have a happy, long life with your Ilana and Jackie. And, I know it can NEVER happen as it should have. But, I still pretend that maybe there IS magic in the world....until I remember that this is the real world, and you are ash. 

Thank you for having that little boy to help us live through the rest of our lives without our first love.....I miss you forever. I hope you are waiting in some kind of heavenly place. I will know you, no matter what form we are. I love you so much, Frankie. I love you so much. 

My boy you will always be...