12/28/16
Christmas is nothing with out you here. We didnt get to see Jackie. But, we will have a little Christmas with him in January. Your Pops had videos sent to him from "Santa". They are so real, and he calls them by name...pretty awesome. We have the special magical present ready for him, behind the tree, that we "know nothing" about...
We are sharing the magic with him. You see it, I know. And, I love him with all my heart, Frankie. He is the one thing that keeps me going. I just want to find you. If there is nothing out there, and nothing left of you...so be it....at least I wont feel this pain anymore. And, if there is, then...Hallelujah! I get to see my most loved being in the universe. I miss your hugs, your laugh, your anger, your everything, my son. I feel like a hollow shell. I hate this world. I hate it. I feel nothing is ahead for me. What is there? Why am I still here? I am finished with my life. Let death come and find me, because I want to be with my son again. Pops will come and then we will one by one, by one be together again. I cant stand the pain. Its too fucking big, Frankie. Please
Memories and thoughts of our son...our best friend.
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