Hey Ruiz!!

Hey Pal

Been a while since I posted. Things have been kinda rough lately...been thinking of you a lot! Mom is struggling terribly and I, well I feel that my feeling of the loss of you is increasing.

I was remembering things the other day. I guess reminiscing is a better word.
Don't know how you started, but one day you started calling Ruiz instead of Dad. Of course you also called me Dad, Daddy when you were concerned about something, but Ruiz was what you called me when you wanted my attention. And yes you got it! LOL

You also called me Pops...and you know, it seems like all if not most of your friends call me that now. Well close friends anyway :) I have to tell you that I like it. It so reminds me of you.

I speak to you all the time Frankie and I would like to think that you hear me. Most of the time I speak to you with my mind and others I speak to you out loud,....verbally.
And you sometimes I hear you reply. I see you in my minds eye...bigger than life and I smile. And other times there is nothing but silence. And I understand that too.

When I get replies from you there is a specific feeling when I believe it's genuine. There is also a feeling when I feel like it's just me creating a response. I am really getting good at discerning between the two.

Please continue to reach out to us if you are or can.,,,,,Please!

Love you Frankie

Pops A.K.A. Ruiz

xxooxxoo