May 24, 2017

Sarah had a baby boy on May 22, 2017.
I am happy for them, and the baby is beautiful. His name is James Walter Baird-Weglinski.
I had thought they might have thought of giving him your name as his middle name.
I don't know why, I just had hoped.
They are all happy and doing well. I am glad for that.
But, these things only serve as reminders that time is marching on, without you. I know we all have to die someday, but you left an very unfinished life behind.
But, I know you watched over her during that night. I know you watch over all of us, always.
I miss you so much, I almost cannot bear another breath. I have so much in my heart that I cannot give words to. Its is overwhelming and hopeless. This world is diminished, without you in it.
I hope we will all meet again. So many things I want to say, so many things.

Most of all that it is not fucking fair. You got cheated. I hate that, it makes me crazy. I could go insane with these thoughts . I am rageful and simmering contantly underneath my smile. I FUCKING HATE LIVING WITHOUT YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate it! I FUCKING HATE IT

Frankie, I KNOW you would be laughing right now....KNOWING how TRUE this is, It's ME RIGHT?!? I love you son, and I miss the little things we used to share. They were as important as the big events.....Wait for us.

5/19/17