When I think of you, not being able to breathe. Slowly suffocating. Blue.        

I feel like I can't live another moment.

I have to talk myself down off the cliff. 

I hate that you had to suffer so much, so quickly. 

My baby, my boy. 

I can't. I just can't.

I love you so much.

I miss you.

I miss you. 

I miss you forever.

This was sent to your sweet girl, Ilana,  on Valentines Day 2016. Its hard to kill these plants, and you know how hard she is on plants! LOL! Last year I sent her a HUGE cactii arrangement. Its STILL alive! You would be proud of her! lol!
So, I will keep doing this until...well, you know....
I miss you Frankie. I miss our laughter and love.
All the joking, and all the aggravation.
I would do anything to have it all back....
I love you, son.
Happy Valentines Day in the Cosmos...

I miss you, my pride and joy...
I think about you about a billion times a day.
I ring the singing bow three meaningful times before I leave the house every morning.
Its funny, but I have to shut the door before the last vibration stops....
I guess I want to capture it there for the day, and imagine it humming around with good energy all over the house. Maybe you will hear it, and smile.
God, this is hard, Frankie.
I am so sorry.
I wish it could have been me, instead of you. I swear that on my soul.
You were a light in the world that should NOT have been snuffed out.
I hope you can see Jackie, and how awesome he is, and is becoming. Oh, Frankie....he has so many of your wonderful quirky ways!!! How does he do that? Well, I HAVE a theory! (lol)...Its you. I know that in my heart of hearts. You must be so proud, of him...and Ilana. She is a strong girl....
Let me stop, or I will start sobbing again.
I love you forever and always, my little brown boy.....
I hope you are flying with umbrellas on skateboards up there in the cosmos, comrade!
Be FREE! Be FREE!

Its Louie Louiee! She misses you, and your crazy antics....